blues

(see bottom of this for a resolution!)

I just read Ben's honest and revealing and funny posts, and want to write about something real.

Two of my best and oldest friends have, in the course of a single week, blown up in my presence, once at another friend, once at me.

They're both wonderful human beings and I owe them more than I can ever imagine. But now I'm left picking up pieces, wondering just where we stand.

How much do you give before you say no more?

How accommodating can one be without encouraging bad behavior?

How can a friend act so aggressively?

How much does knowledge of sleeplessness and depression and past experience weigh on a balance against anger taken out on another person?

How much account should one take of alcohol?

Doesn't friendship endure through bad times and good?

What's more precious than friendship?

How lonely is life without friends and family?

All real questions.
All with the understanding that most real questions don't really have answers.

And, as a true friend would -- the friend who got angry with me came by and apologized and we talked and except for a slight wariness that will last for a while things are good again. Where would any of us be without apology?